I love that I journal. I’ve done it off and on since 1991 when I was beginning the summer before 7th grade. I’ve never really gone through any of them, but I decided to last night for some reason. It’s interesting to see where my thoughts were in junior high, high school, college, and on into adulthood. I’m so thankful I have these thoughts and memories to look back on.
I ran across one from Jan 31, 2004, and it was actually a short conversation I was having with God. I know some of you may think I’m going loony tunes over here, but God really does speak to us. He wants us to have a friendship with him where we both speak to one another. And we all hear him in a different way.
The thing I love most about this conversation is that I see where I am now and how I am no longer nervous to share my beliefs with others, but I once was terrified. I don’t remember that time—well, I didn’t remember it until I read this. And there’s one sentence (underlined) that is amazing to me as it later became the mission of my ministry to young women everywhere. I want to share it with you because I think what God said to me may be something you need to hear as well.
Jan 31, 2004
ME: God, talk to me tonight. Tell me what you want me to do. Give me a word. Thank you, Jesus.
GOD: Why are you so afraid of what others think? I’m the one who died for you. Why do you feel you have to please man? Don’t forget that man will disappoint you. I’m the only one who will never disappoint you. I need you to help spread the word about me. So what if people think you’re one of those “Jesus freaks”? What makes that be such a bad thing? Be content with who you are and what I’ve called you to be. I love you unconditionally. I want you to love me the same way and don’t be ashamed.
Let God speak to you. I bet you hear him often and may not even realize it. What is he saying? I highly recommend writing it down so you can look back years from now and see how relevant it was in your life even if it may not seem to be at the moment.