When I was in my early 20s, I began to really draw close to God in a way I had never done before. I started noticing a trend. With every new study I delved into, I was being attacked in the very area in which I was studying.
Have you ever noticed something similar in your walk?
One thing I strive to do is be open and transparent with you, my reader. I haven’t done that lately, though. As I’ve written books and posts on certain subjects, I’ve found myself being hit hard in the same areas in which I’m trying to help you overcome. Things I struggled with in my past have resurfaced.
Last night, I found myself in a place I hadn’t been in a long time, and I wanted to write about it.
As I have been writing about self-image and certain topics from my book that’s currently being reviewed by a publisher, I find that I’m beginning to struggle again with some of those exact same things. In these moments, I have some choices to make:
- Allow myself to fall deeper into the trap, which would in turn, cause me to stop speaking the word to my readers
- Allow myself to hide what’s going on and continue being a mentor for young girls all the while pretending everything is perfect, which can cause me to lose credibility in the long run
- Open up to let you, the reader, see that I’m clearly not perfect and struggle with the same things as you do
So I’m choosing the last choice. I struggle too, and I’m going to claim Romans 8:28 as mine today: And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. I’m also claiming Genesis 50:20 as mine today, too: You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.
The enemy can try to cause us to stumble while we are getting closer to God and follow his calling, but it’s up to you and me to decide what to do with the stuff he throws our way.
One thing I’ve learned over the years is that coming clean and letting others know what’s going on is a great way to push the enemy’s scheming ways farther out of the picture. His plan is for us to keep everything inside and hidden so that it can eat away at us and we begin to move away from our purpose. We start feeling like we can’t fulfill the purpose because of the things we struggle with, which was the enemy’s intent in the first place.
The best thing to do when you are following your call and getting hit by the enemy is to be open with those around you. As Dominic Russo said at our youth retreat, “Let your purpose be your accountability partner.” You, sweet friend, are my purpose. You are why I write almost daily. You are who I’m speaking to each day. You are my accountability partner!
So, as I’ve rambled today, I’ll let you know that you and I both are absolutely, positively fearfully and wonderfully made by the one and only true God, and nothing about us was created imperfectly. If you’re in the store, as I was yesterday, and someone doesn’t realize that you’re already struggling with self-image craziness and says, “It looks like you’ve gained a little weight,” then brush it off. Those words are not of God. Maybe you didn’t look healthy when she saw you before, but you’re healthy now. Maybe you have put on a couple of pounds, but it’s not necessary for it to be pointed out. It’s a means by which the enemy chooses to knock you down when you’re already weak.
The point of this whole post today is that there will be attacks when you’re following your call and fulfilling your purpose. Let people know you’re in the midst of attack so they can pray for you. Don’t stay in them. God gave you the tools to fight it. He has already overcome them, so just utilize what he’s given you to walk through them.
Are there attacks you’ve been dealing with lately that you’ve kept inside? Get them out in the open! Whether it’s here or with someone you love, voice it so prayer warriors can cover you in prayer. You are a warrior princess equipped with everything you need to get past it.
Read through Romans 8:28 and Genesis 50:20 today. What do they mean to you?
If you feel you have no one to vocalize your struggles with, but you aren’t comfortable placing them here for the world to see, then feel free to email me firstname.lastname@example.org. I would love to pray for you.
Check out a related article by author, Amanda Beth. We must have been on the same wavelength today.
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9 thoughts on “Just Me: Leader, Mentor, Writer, Speaker, and Today. . .Fighter”
Thanks for posting this Misty. I’m in the midst of the same thing right now! There are some things that I’ve recently started talking about to a few close friends that I previously wouldn’t have, but decided that I need to be covered in prayer, so I chose to unveil my struggle. The reason I hadn’t shared it before was because I thought it was a lack of faith on my part if I needed to talk about it. As a result, I was just sucking it up and taking it to God only for Him to heal. But, I realized it’s okay to need others to stand with me! This was confirmation that I’m doing the right thing.
Thank you for sharing as well. Honestly, I kept feeling like I needed to post this, but I started writing about something different instead. I couldn’t get the other topic going, and I knew it was because this needed to be heard. I think leaders and mentors often get the notion that putting on a picture perfect facade is necessary to get the respect and credibility of those they lead, but I believe it’s completely opposite. Keep doing what you’re doing because, I believe, when you start getting hit like you are, then you’re on the right track.
Misty you are a beautiful soul. You mean so much to me and I am so excited for your journey. But I mentioned this to you at church one morning but we are always so busy to really connect sometimes. I know God will not leave me nor forsake me BUT for a long time I feel He has done just that. And than I am full of that guilt ughhhhh around and around it goes. Trial after trial after trial. Sometimes I wake up and think God what are you going to do to me today? I lie in bed at night and think why pray, He doesn’t listen anyway. In my car I talk to Him and wonder does He really listen to me? Confession Done.
Thank you for sharing. We have talked about this often. I know you’re struggling, and it’s even more difficult when you don’t know why. I’ll continue to pray for you to find peace and for a breakthrough to come soon. Love you!
Great message, Misty! We are definitely on the same wavelength. It’s good to be honest about our struggles, even to the ones we are ministering too. Thanks for the reminder:) By the way, I just saw Dominic Russo at a few events recently. He lives by me. I didn’t realize he was so popular. I just thought he was local. Dominic does the angel house orphanage. I’ve been praying about donating a certain amount from my books to the angel house. It’s great to see God using his ministry in such a powerful way.
It’s funny you say that about Angel House. Our youth group just raised money to build TWO orphanages in India. We’re taking a mission trip for the dedication in June. I spoke with someone from Angel House about donating some of my books, and they said they would use them to teach English to the girls in the orphanages! I’m gathering them up through June. Go for it! We really are on the same wavelength!
Wow, that’s so funny. I guess that’s confirmation for me! I was praying about it and holding off since I didn’t know much about their ministry. That’s great you get to go their in June. God is good:)
Bless you Misty! Bless you. God is using you and allow Him to continue. The enemy does not like it, but we know It is ALL about God! Keep on keeping on. Love you
Thank you for your kind words.