My plan was not to post today, but I just wanted to share that God is stirring something within me that is getting me excited! Stepping back, I can see that things have already been set in motion, and people have been placed in my life, and what is stirring may soon become reality!
Psalm 46:10 says “Be still, and know that I am God!. . .”
As excited as I am and ready to do this, I know that I must first be still and let God move in other places and with other people.
I work as a youth leader and was told by our youth pastor once that I was like an “unbridled horse” who got ideas and just went with it. According to dictionary.com , a bridle is anything that restrains or curbs. So a horse without a bridle is one who has free reign to go whenever she is ready. He was absolutely right! I get excited about something, and I just go at it full force. That’s not usually the best way to approach anything. When I do that, I’m not allowing God to work in me. I am the one taking control and doing all the work, which is why I fail, or burn out, more often than I would like. I am learning to hear God’s voice, and sit. My heart is ready to leap out of my chest, and I literally feel like I have to restrain myself in order to not charge ahead.
I imagine a race horse behind a closed stall with the rider about to get on. When the rider is about to pull his leg over the horse, it rears up and hits the stall gate knocking the rider on to the ground. Then, I see the gates opening, and the horse is running full force not even realizing her rider is still back at the starting gate. The horse crosses the finish line before any other horse, but she can’t be too excited because, according to the rules, “horses are automatically disqualified if they throw their riders. A horse that crosses the finish line riderless will not be considered in the final placings of the race.”* Everything the horse has done has been in vain because it doesn’t count.
~~This is me. It’s not just a picture I imagine, it’s how I feel. There are so many times that I feel like the horse raring to go with an amazing vision God gave to me. The problem is that I go full force without waiting on God. By the time I reach the finish line, I notice that I’ve left God behind, and I’ve actually accomplished nothing.
Have you ever felt like that? God gives us vision, and for me, the visions are immense. They are bigger than anything I could have ever come up with on my own. I see the end product, but I sometimes have trouble getting there because I run with it and ignore all of the little details it takes to get that finished product.
I’m asking for my friends, students, subscribers, and those of you who just stumbled upon my blog to pray with me and for me. I ask that you pray that I wait on God and not get ahead of myself. This vision is far too big to mess up by leaving God’s important details out of it.
*Information from Sports Comet