Absolutely Perfect Imperfection

 

What I Know . . .

 

What I Know . . .  

It’s interesting how a person can live half of a lifetime having no idea who she truly is because she’s too busy focusing on the needs and wants of others that she loses focus of herself for fear of being selfish. I’m 36 years old, yet I’ve only recently discovered myself.   I think some things I’ve discovered have been there forever, but I didn’t feel they were important enough to let them be made known. Some of them I thought to be too insignificant making me question how selfish I really am. Others have remained hidden until now.

Of these things I am certain:

I am beautiful.

I am whole.

I’ve been broken, but I’ve never been destroyed.

Because of my God, I am pure.

I am a mommy who loves my babies with every fiber of my being.

I am a daughter who still needs the love, affection, ear, and time of my parents.

I am a sister who needs the friendship only a sister can give.

As the daughter of the one true King, I am a princess in every possible way.

I am a friend.

I am compassionate and feel the pain of others whether they’re friends, family, or strangers.

I am impatient.

I am full of emotion and have learned the balance between allowing myself to feel versus allowing my feelings to take control of me.

I am passionate about the things I believe in.

I’m a fighter.

I will fight to be heard, and I will fight for justice, and I will fight for my beliefs not because I need others to believe the same but because I need for my beliefs to be acknowledged.

I will not judge others, but I am quick to judge myself.

I trust too easily, so if that trust is broken, I fall into an abyss of questions and uncertainty.

Every moment of my life is an opportunity to minister to others.

I am perfect, not because I can do no wrong but because I was created by the hands of God and have put my life in those hands.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I yearn to change lives.

I am a lover.

I love to love, and although there are times I take my loved ones for granted, I strive to let my actions express what my words can’t so those I love never have to question if it’s genuine.

I love to know I’m loved, not because someone told me I am but because they’ve shown me daily.

I need to be appreciated.

I am strong.

I am quiet, but somehow I am loud.

My heart breaks when, despite all my attempts, I can’t help someone who is hurting themselves because the truth is I can’t change their hearts; only they can.

I can easily not react to someone’s physical pain, but I can’t bear to see someone hurting from within.

I am extremely private, yet I am an open book.

I get distracted easily.

I fear letting people down in any capacity.

I love to make people smile.

It’s easier for me to allow myself to be continually hurt by someone than to hurt them by dissociating myself from them.

I am valuable.

I am priceless.

I have a great need to feel valued by those who I hold near.

I am guarded, so when I let my guard down and get hurt, I hurt deeply.

I have a desperate need to be spoiled.

I am spoiled, not with things or having my way but with love, affection, friendship, and security.

I desire to help everyone I come in contact with find confidence in who they are and realize their greatness.

I am touch avoidant, yet I long for hugs from those I love.

I am good enough.

I am intelligent.

I am incredibly creative.

I need fast pace, but I hate being rushed.

I overanalyze the meaning behind words spoken to me.

I take things too personally.

Tone is important to me, so one must be careful how words are presented.

Gifts are great, but I prefer time, attention, and closeness.

I am not funny.

I don’t find humor in most things.

I am a perfectionist.

I am incredibly hard on myself.

My mind doesn’t have a slow down or stop button; it’s constantly going, so I often feel like I have a Ferrari engine attached to the bicycle the world requires me to drive.

I sometimes feel trapped.

I know I’m free.

I take on way too much on a regular basis.

I want to be able to be involved in everything regarding my kids, and I will continue to hope for the day I can be that mom my heart so desires.

Scripture keeps me sane.

I sin like everyone else, and I will not sugar coat my mistakes to make myself appear humble yet untouchable and unrelatable.

I am a mess in pretty much every way.

I have a strong need for my kids to be proud of me, yet I fear daily I am letting them down.

I am sometimes incredibly naïve.

I am a work in progress.

I fear not pleasing God.

I am forgiven.

I am blessed.

I am loved.

I am me.

Who Says You’re Not Perfect?

Who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting.
Trust me.
That’s the price of beauty.  Who says you’re not pretty?  Who says you’re not beautiful?*

Every time I hear it on the radio, this song causes me to stop and listen.  What are your thoughts when you stop and really listen to these words?  Before going on, listen to the video below and take the song in as if it’s about you.

This song reminds me so much of my book, The Real You, because the entire premise is about the way God views us versus the way the world does.

I’m no beauty queen.  I’m just beautiful me.

Amen and Praise God!  I fully accept this statement for myself!  According to Merriam-Webster online, the definition of beauty queen is: a beautiful and glamorous woman or girl; specifically: a winner of a beauty contest.

Who is it that determines what beautiful and glamorous is in order for one to win a beauty contest?  The pageants I’ve seen had only human eyes viewing and judging the outcome.  How does that make any sense?  God was, is, and always will be the creator of ALL THINGS beautiful.  He created you, and Psalm 45:11 says he is enthralled by your beauty.  Girl, you won the beauty queen title a LONG time ago, but it was by the one and only person who can judge you with 100% accuracy.  As the first day of my study says, the creator of all things beautiful is absolutely and completely enthralled by YOUR beauty!  There’s no first, second, third runner up.  You were already crowned, so why search for validation in the flawed eyes of those judges?

Furthermore, who is it that says you’re not worth it?  I believe the Bible is God’s Holy Word and the spoken truth given to us by the one and only Savior.  The bible says that God sent his only son – not his first son.  Not his third son.  Not his eighteenth son.  He sent his one and only son that he loved more than any father could ever love a son.  He sent him down to live life in the flesh and die a brutal death just so he could spend eternity with you, his beautiful and perfectly created daughter.  He, the creator of the Heavens and the Earth; the creator of all things good; the creator of all things beautiful and perfect; He says YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY WORTH EVERY BIT OF IT!

The next time you feel judged by who you are; the next time someone makes you feel insecure for who you are; remember that they are looking at you through a lens that is foggy.  They don’t see who you really are.  Remember that you are beautiful, made perfect by the blood of Christ, and completely worth the price he had to pay to spend eternity with you.  Remember you were created with a plan and a purpose, and you are the only one who can fulfill your plan and purpose, so changing anything about who you are can cause you to veer from the path God laid out for you.

Proceed with Caution!

One thing I know about us girls is that when we become insecure, we search for insecurities in others and make sure to point them out.  More than likely, if it’s another girl making you feel insecure or judging you, it’s because she has insecurities herself.  So before retaliating with hurtful words, which is something else we often do, consider the fact that Jesus died for her too.  She is beautiful.  She is worth it.  She is no better than you, and you are no better than her.  Don’t allow the enemy to create an ugly conflict between two of God’s beautiful creations.

One thing I know about boys (not all boys, mind you), is that they create insecurities in girls so girls will become vulnerable to them.  I heard it twice last week alone from a teenage boy, “I know how to handle girls.  Treat them like crap and say a bunch of mean things about them, and they’ll do whatever I want.”  He went on to say, “I don’t do that with the girls I really like.  I only do it to girls I don’t.  Then it’s not a big deal to get what I want and leave them alone.”**

Girls, this is real!  There are boys who knock you down just so you’ll do whatever they want in order to gain approval from them.  Here’s what’s even worse:  we fall into their trap!  They know it will work because it has so many times before.

Never let yourself think you aren’t worth more than that.  The King of Kings and Lord of Lords is your daddy, and as his daughter, you are a princess.  I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, you should never allow yourself to be treated as anything less than that.

Push those lies of the enemy out of your thoughts and replace them with the truth.  Get in the word and fill your heart with scriptures telling you how much God thinks of you.  The bible is overflowing with love letters to you about your beauty, the perfection God created, the intricacy with which you were formed, the importance of your life, the purpose for which you were created, and the priceless worth of your life.

I’ll ask again:  Who says you’re not perfect?  Who says you’re not worth it?  Who says you’re not pretty?  Who says you’re not beautiful?

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 Disclaimer:  please forgive me if you enjoy pageants and other beauty contests.  I don’t mean to offend.
*Selena Gomez – Who Says
**italicized words are my own cleaned up version of what was really said.